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30 October:
I guess what's done is done, no point looking back now... those hours I spent mugging sec 1 to sec 4 stuff went to waste and i spotted the compo question wrongly. But I did put up a good fight nonetheless, the results I shall leave to God.
The only thing I fear now is that my results would not meet my tuition teacher's expectations lol. She expects me to get an A2 at least and she always tells me about my cousin's achievements and it seriously pisses me off lol. I hate it when people always compare me to other people and tell me how good other people are, it crushes my already fragile ego.
I really look down on myself. I do not think the talents I have are worth anything. I'm jealous of many people. I'm sensitive but I prefer to keep stuff to myself. I fade out during social gatherings. People around me talk about stuff I have faintly no idea about, simple because I wasn't a part of their class 2 years ago.
And lol I really have to say this: I REALLY DETEST LATECOMING.
People tell you to come at 6.30 and you bloody-hell come at 8 plus. WTH not everybody has the time to wait for you so you better be punctual. If you come 15 minutes late I can still understand but 1 hour late??? It's not that I don't have patience, it's about COURTESY! What picture are you sending out to everyone when you report 1 hour late? It hints that you aren't interested to come! If you're really keen on the dinner then you would have come at least 5 minutes earlier! I tell you, keep that late-coming habit and you will die in the army. I can promise you that.
Yup, I know I have lashed out strongly at some people just now. It's not in my nature to lash out at people, especially at friends, but when I do, it's because I want to drive a point to them. This is something I have kept to myself for some time but I think its time they really changed for the better.
I guess what's done is done, no point looking back now... those hours I spent mugging sec 1 to sec 4 stuff went to waste and i spotted the compo question wrongly. But I did put up a good fight nonetheless, the results I shall leave to God.
The only thing I fear now is that my results would not meet my tuition teacher's expectations lol. She expects me to get an A2 at least and she always tells me about my cousin's achievements and it seriously pisses me off lol. I hate it when people always compare me to other people and tell me how good other people are, it crushes my already fragile ego.
I really look down on myself. I do not think the talents I have are worth anything. I'm jealous of many people. I'm sensitive but I prefer to keep stuff to myself. I fade out during social gatherings. People around me talk about stuff I have faintly no idea about, simple because I wasn't a part of their class 2 years ago.
And lol I really have to say this: I REALLY DETEST LATECOMING.
People tell you to come at 6.30 and you bloody-hell come at 8 plus. WTH not everybody has the time to wait for you so you better be punctual. If you come 15 minutes late I can still understand but 1 hour late??? It's not that I don't have patience, it's about COURTESY! What picture are you sending out to everyone when you report 1 hour late? It hints that you aren't interested to come! If you're really keen on the dinner then you would have come at least 5 minutes earlier! I tell you, keep that late-coming habit and you will die in the army. I can promise you that.
Yup, I know I have lashed out strongly at some people just now. It's not in my nature to lash out at people, especially at friends, but when I do, it's because I want to drive a point to them. This is something I have kept to myself for some time but I think its time they really changed for the better.
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